Update time!!

     Well its been a few months since I have updated this thing. I am so horrible at this. So I had better get it updated.  We found out that a month ago that we are having another baby girl!! We are really excited about it but the kids were a little bummed cause they really wanted a little brother.  Everything has been going pretty good and I am happy to say I have reached my pre-pregnancy weight and I've gained a few pounds.  There for awhile I was wondering if I would ever eat real food again. They have moved my due date up a couple days to Feb 26th.  It's so crazy to think that it is already half over.

     The kids are loving school and doing so well. Wyatt is doing sooo much better with his reading and his math skills are awesome!!! Jordyn is scoring way high in her state testing which really doesn't surprise me, she is too smart for her own good sometimes.  Jailey is doing awesome too and I don't doubt that when kindergarten comes she will be more than ready.  They ask me everyday when the baby is going to come out. I think they are a little anxious. 

     Jake has been working in Salt Lake the last few months so he has been able to come home every weekend which has been great. He is such a big help to me with the kids and things around the house. He took Wyatt hunting for the first time this year and they got a little buck which Wyatt thought was the biggest deer on the mountain. He is such a good dad.  He had a week off and he spent every second he could with the kids and me.  He colored with them, rode horses and watched T.V. with them.  He also watched them so that I could spend sometime with my family while my grandpa was in the hospital.

     It's been a crazy couple months and it's only going to get crazier! Jake's birthday is tomorrow and mine is Tuesday. Then Thanksgiving comes and then we have Wyatt and Jordyn's birthday's in December and then Christmas.  Then we have a few weeks to recoup before the baby comes. I will try my hardest to keep this thing updated, but if not Happy Holidays to all of you!!!!

Where has summer gone?!?!

     I have been such a slacker with my blog this summer, so hang with me while I catch everyone up.  June 30th we were sealed as an eternal family.  It was an amazing day! Words can't even describe the overwhelming feeling of peace I felt that day.  We had lots of family and many friends come out to share our special day.  I am very lucky to have the family and friends that I have. I don't know what I would do without their love and support in this big change.  If you had told me over a year ago what my life would be like today I would have called you a liar.  I never thought that all of this could be mine.  I hadn't lived a spot free life and I am not perfect.  It took a lot of prayer and self examination to realize that I was just living a small part of the life I could live.  Ever since I decided things needed to change a little I have never  been happier.  It's kind of funny cause when I was younger I was the outsider cause I didn't go to church and that was okay with me, but I find it a little hard to be the outsider because we now are active in the church.  The people that are suppose to be your friends kind of look at you different and treat you different.  We are the same people we used to be.  We just have chosen to not do some things that we used to do.  We still love to hangout with friends and have fun.  But anyway that's a little heavy and I have more stuff to write about ;)

     We have been having issues with Jordyn and her stomach for the last few months.  Finally after trying all kinds of meds we went to see a Peds GI and he ran a ton of tests.  I am hoping that we will finally find out what is causing her so much pain.  Jake is now working out of town again.  He called me on his way home one Friday and said "I quit my job"  I just about died! What was he thinking??  Well he likes to make me sweat a little before he tells me that he got a offer to work lots of hours and make a little more money. The catch is he has been gone for a month now.  But we are hoping that they will have some work in Salt Lake this fall!  He should be headed back this way next week.

     The kids are growing up so fast!! They are very excited to start school in two weeks! Wyatt will be in 2nd grade and Jordyn will be in kindergarten.  Jailey will be in her last year of preschool.  It is so crazy how fast time slips by.  They however are even more excited for the 1st of March cause that is when their new little brother or sister is suppose to arrive!

     Yes you read right, we are expecting #4 the first of March.  I know what all of you are thinking "They are crazy" or "Why start over"  I'll fill you in on that.  Last fall why redoing our living room Jake kept saying that the girls should move downstairs and their room would make a great nursery.  I looked at him like he had sprouted another head.  He has never in all the years I've been married to him suggested we have another kid.  I have secretly wanted one for awhile now but I thought I had know how Jake felt about it so I didn't bring it up.  Well when he said that I decided we should talk about it.  He told me to find out with my doctor's what all I would have to do to even think about trying.  The meds I have been on for over 3 years have done damage to my liver and are very dangerous to a baby.  The doctor's told me that I had to go off all my meds for at least 6 months so in December I stopped them all except one that I had to only be off of for 1 month.  They told me that it was going to be hard and that I would experience lots of pain coming off the meds. Which was the truth, but I just kept thinking about the end results.  When we got the okay from my doctor's they warned me that it could take awhile for me to get pregnant because of my RA.  Well being the (as my sister likes to call me) Fertile Mertal that I am it took 2 months.  We found out the week before we went to the temple so that made the experience even more special, cause all of our children were there.  I had a hard time telling a  people cause I'm scared of their reactions and we kept it quite for awhile too cause I have had a few problems, but everything is going good now.  I am really nervous and excited.  I have never been so sick in my life.  I was never sick with the other ones.  I feel like this is the first time all over again. 

     So that's a little about our crazy summer!!  And I hope nobody is made about me keeping our secret for awhile!! Hope everyone enjoys the last 2 weeks of their summer!!!

The Date Has Been Set!!!!!!

I have been horrible at keeping my blog updated and I am sorry for those of you who actually like reading my randomness.  A lot has been going on around here it seems like. Jake as been working really close to home so he is able to come home on the weekends.  I have really enjoyed this. The kids have loved having their dad home.  He is so good with them. He has had them outside digging in the dirt and having the girl collecting worms ;)  They are his little helpers and they love it.  My yard is starting to look awesome.

We celebrated our 8th anniversary on the 5th of this  month.  It is so crazy that we have been married that long.  We have been together for almost 11 years.  I knew when I met him we were suppose to be together.  Not saying things weren't a little hard at times but we made it through them.  Now we are about to take our next big step and that is being sealed for time and all eternity in the Logan temple on the 30th of June!!! I am so excited for this I can't even describe it.  We were married on the first Thursday in June and we will be getting sealed on the last Thursday in June.  Jake says I am weird but I think that is kind of cool.

Getting to the temple hasn't been a walk in the park and its been a emotional process.  It has brought us closer than we have been in a long time.  It is so overwhelming when I look back at the last few years and see how far I have come.  All because a dear friend of mine saw something in me that I didn't see in myself and made me feel like I could do it.  The next month is going to be hectic but it will be great. If any of you want details on our sealing please let me know!! Thanks for all the support and love. Keeps us in your prayers for the next month cause I know its not going to be easy cause a certain someone is going to try everything he can to keep us from our goal and he is not going to win!!!!!

WOW!!!

   Since my last post somethings have changed.  The Wednesday after Jake was ordained and Elder I got a phone call asking if I could meet with the bishop. I said that wouldn't be a problem.  I thought it was just going to be an interview to get me going on getting my temple recommend. Boy was I wrong.  When I showed up to the church and Brother Jones met me at the door and went into the Bishop's office with me I knew this wasn't a temple recommend interview this was a calling interview.  They told me how the Lord had a road map set out for me and that map had brought me to his office.  He asked me if I would be willing to be the Primary Sec. I was a little nervous about it but I said yes that I would.  Well I got a call that Saturday from the Bishop and he asked if he could stop by my house for a min.  I said that would be fine.  I had a bunch of thoughts running through my head thinking what did I do now!! I haven't even started my job yet.  When he came by he said there had been a miscommunication and he needed me to be the 2nd counselor. Well this is  a even bigger job cause it requires  me to actually teach the kids.  I thought about it for a min and I had a good feeling so I said yes!  The sisters in the presidency are just great!! I am very excited about it!!

   In Jake's blessing he was blessed that his work might bring him closer to home.  We all laughed a little about that cause he never works very close.  He works for my uncle right now and he was there for the blessing and said looks like we might be getting work closer to home because of your blessing. We all laughed about that too. Well here we are a month later and he is working close to home for at least 5 months.  I have been praying that this would happen so that he could attend the temple classes with me so that we can get to the temple soon and it now looks like that will happen.  June is our goal!!  I do believe our prayers have been answered!!!
  
   Our life is changing by leaps and bounds!! I can't wait to see what waits ahead!!!! 

  And if men come unto me I will show them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.   Ether 12:27

   I have thought about the above passage a lot over the last few months.  Out of all that I have read this passage hits me the hardest.  For the longest time I thought of myself as someone who had their stuff together, boy was I wrong.  Over the past 3 years I have had trial after trial come before me and I got through them, or so I thought.  Little did I know I was just brushing things under the rug.  Then one day it all came to a head and I fell apart.  I realized I wasn't as strong of a person as I thought I was.  I pulled out a copy of the Book of Mormon that my kids had gotten from their Aunt Nicole and started thumbing through it.  I stopped at this verse and read it over and over.  I had been shown my weaknesses without the rose colored glasses that I had been wearing for far to long.  I finally realized what had been missing in my life and what I needed to do. 

  I have made the changes that I needed to do and I am still making changes.  Each day is a test and more days than others I pass but there are days that I start to question if I am strong enough to pass these tests put in front of me.  When I get thinking like I open my scriptures and read this passage over and over till I get the feeling that everything will be okay.  I loving what my changes have done to my family and how close we have gotten.  I love how me and Jake sit and talk about church stuff all the time.  It has been an adjustment but not a hard one.  I have been humbled and I know that one day my weaknesses will be made strengths.

  We had the most wonderful weekend.  We went to Stake Conference where Jake was sustained and Elder in the church.  Sunday night some of our family members and friends came for dinner and then went with us up to the church where Jake's dad Tony ordained him as an Elder.  The blessing was so beautiful.  I am so happy that my husband is now a priesthood holder.  Our journey is just getting started and I am so excited about where we will end up in the end!

Time for an update!!

  Well it's been awhile since I have updated this thing so i figured I had better get on it.  Not a whole lot has really been going on in the last month.  Kids have all been pretty healthy for the most part and so have I.  I went to the doctor today for my monthly infusion and it went pretty good. Jake is still working in southern California. He hates it and wants to come home.  I want him to come home.  He will be flying in on Friday and will be getting ordained and Elder.  I am very excited for this to happen. It puts us that much closer to the temple.  We had our pa blessings done and it was such a neat experience.  I can't believe I waited this long to have mine done.

  Been going through with drawls from the race track.  I haven't been to one chariot race this season and I kind of miss it.  I miss playing with the horses and the adult interaction after a week of being with the kids.  I miss the friends I made down there.  I am hoping to make it to Worlds in a few weeks but we will see.  I had such a good time down there last year and I would kick myself if I didn't at least go to one race.  Last year I didn't miss one!  I am hoping to get feeling good enough that I will be able to start riding them again with my cousin Cody.  We got really close over the past year and it makes me really happy that we can share something together.  Although he has made a kind of career as a jockey, I would like to run one race and then I would be happy. But for now I will take just galloping them!

Well got a busy week and month! Hopefully my next post will be longer with some good news about a temple date!!

     Well the last two weeks have been really nice.  Jake has been home for two weeks and I have loved it.  He has been so helpful with the kids and it has given me a much needed break.  I have been hurting really bad lately cause I have gone off one of my meds.  It was a shot that I was giving myself once a week and its called Methotrexate. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's chemo.  Needless to say I felt like crap for 5 out of the 7 days of the week.  My hair is pretty thick so the hair loss that occurs isn't that noticeable.  Another side effect is my liver freaks out and I turn a lovely shade of yellow.  We are going to try something else but in order for that to happen I have to be off that medicine for at least 4 months. I will be two months in on the 10th.  It has been a long two months.  I go this Friday for my month IV infusion and I can hardly wait. This new medicine has been helping a lot but I am a little nervous to see how it works when it's not paired with the other drug.  They usually walk hand in hand. I am pretty hopeful the new thing we are going to do will help a lot for a little while. It could take a few months till we know for sure if it will help. So all in all I am looking at a good six months till I know if the new thing will work. Two months down tho! 

     Jake leaves this Saturday to go to Southern California for work.  He will be out there for a few months but he will be flying home as often as he can and I hope to go out and see him at least once since I have never been to California.  We are both getting our patriarchal blessing done on the 13th of February. I am very excited about this.  It is something I have always wanted done.  Jake will be ordained an Elder on the 6th of March and then we are temple bound as soon as the Bishop gives us the okay.  I am so excited.  I am hoping to go in June but I am not picky. I will go whenever the Bishop says we are ready.  I have been truly blessed and continue to be blessed each and everyday!

Changes are coming!

      I have been lacking in keeping my blog updated because of all the things that have been happening in our lives.  We have been experiencing such great things these days.  We met with our bishop last Sunday and I left with the most wonderful feeling.  As we sat there and discussed the things that need to happen and when he gave us a small idea of what will happen once we are in the walls of the temple I broke down in tears.  To think that I have been denying my family the blessings that come from being sealed to each other was almost to much to think about.  The feeling of peace I got when I closed my eyes and pictured it in my mind the tears increased in pace.  Our bishop was very excited to see our reaction to the things he said. He said he can see how much this means to us and wants to get us going asap.

      First step is getting Jake ordained and Elder and we are happy to say that if everything goes as planned that will happen March 6th.  The blessings we will receive by having a priesthood holder in our home will in measurable.  We will also be starting temple readiness classes as soon as it can be arranged. That will be a little hard with Jake being out of town a lot but the bishop seemed to think it would all work out. 

     I find myself very weepy lately.  I am not sure why that is.  I wish I could blame it on being pregnant but I know for a fact that is not the reason.  I do think it is because I am so in tuned with the spirit these days I just don't know what to do with all the emotions and they are flowing right out of me.  The missionaries told me once that the Holy Ghost doesn't "hit" you over the head very often but when he does you know it and your life changes forever.  I can attest to that for sure. October 10th 2010 is the day I was "hit" over the head and decided I needed to make some changes in my life.  I have always wanted to go to the temple with my family but always figured we could go later.  Well, we are never guaranteed later.  One never knows what will happen day to day.  The very thought that I could walk through eternity alone and without my family makes me sick.  I am going to live my life the way that He would have me live it so that I along with my family will be worthy to walk with Him again one day.  It is going to be a long hard road but I know that if I stay close to my family and my faith, we will get to our goal!! I love each and everyone of you and if you haven't found the peace I speak of I truly hope that one day you to will be "hit" over the head!!!