Well the last two weeks have been really nice.  Jake has been home for two weeks and I have loved it.  He has been so helpful with the kids and it has given me a much needed break.  I have been hurting really bad lately cause I have gone off one of my meds.  It was a shot that I was giving myself once a week and its called Methotrexate. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's chemo.  Needless to say I felt like crap for 5 out of the 7 days of the week.  My hair is pretty thick so the hair loss that occurs isn't that noticeable.  Another side effect is my liver freaks out and I turn a lovely shade of yellow.  We are going to try something else but in order for that to happen I have to be off that medicine for at least 4 months. I will be two months in on the 10th.  It has been a long two months.  I go this Friday for my month IV infusion and I can hardly wait. This new medicine has been helping a lot but I am a little nervous to see how it works when it's not paired with the other drug.  They usually walk hand in hand. I am pretty hopeful the new thing we are going to do will help a lot for a little while. It could take a few months till we know for sure if it will help. So all in all I am looking at a good six months till I know if the new thing will work. Two months down tho! 

     Jake leaves this Saturday to go to Southern California for work.  He will be out there for a few months but he will be flying home as often as he can and I hope to go out and see him at least once since I have never been to California.  We are both getting our patriarchal blessing done on the 13th of February. I am very excited about this.  It is something I have always wanted done.  Jake will be ordained an Elder on the 6th of March and then we are temple bound as soon as the Bishop gives us the okay.  I am so excited.  I am hoping to go in June but I am not picky. I will go whenever the Bishop says we are ready.  I have been truly blessed and continue to be blessed each and everyday!

Changes are coming!

      I have been lacking in keeping my blog updated because of all the things that have been happening in our lives.  We have been experiencing such great things these days.  We met with our bishop last Sunday and I left with the most wonderful feeling.  As we sat there and discussed the things that need to happen and when he gave us a small idea of what will happen once we are in the walls of the temple I broke down in tears.  To think that I have been denying my family the blessings that come from being sealed to each other was almost to much to think about.  The feeling of peace I got when I closed my eyes and pictured it in my mind the tears increased in pace.  Our bishop was very excited to see our reaction to the things he said. He said he can see how much this means to us and wants to get us going asap.

      First step is getting Jake ordained and Elder and we are happy to say that if everything goes as planned that will happen March 6th.  The blessings we will receive by having a priesthood holder in our home will in measurable.  We will also be starting temple readiness classes as soon as it can be arranged. That will be a little hard with Jake being out of town a lot but the bishop seemed to think it would all work out. 

     I find myself very weepy lately.  I am not sure why that is.  I wish I could blame it on being pregnant but I know for a fact that is not the reason.  I do think it is because I am so in tuned with the spirit these days I just don't know what to do with all the emotions and they are flowing right out of me.  The missionaries told me once that the Holy Ghost doesn't "hit" you over the head very often but when he does you know it and your life changes forever.  I can attest to that for sure. October 10th 2010 is the day I was "hit" over the head and decided I needed to make some changes in my life.  I have always wanted to go to the temple with my family but always figured we could go later.  Well, we are never guaranteed later.  One never knows what will happen day to day.  The very thought that I could walk through eternity alone and without my family makes me sick.  I am going to live my life the way that He would have me live it so that I along with my family will be worthy to walk with Him again one day.  It is going to be a long hard road but I know that if I stay close to my family and my faith, we will get to our goal!! I love each and everyone of you and if you haven't found the peace I speak of I truly hope that one day you to will be "hit" over the head!!!