And if men come unto me I will show them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.   Ether 12:27

   I have thought about the above passage a lot over the last few months.  Out of all that I have read this passage hits me the hardest.  For the longest time I thought of myself as someone who had their stuff together, boy was I wrong.  Over the past 3 years I have had trial after trial come before me and I got through them, or so I thought.  Little did I know I was just brushing things under the rug.  Then one day it all came to a head and I fell apart.  I realized I wasn't as strong of a person as I thought I was.  I pulled out a copy of the Book of Mormon that my kids had gotten from their Aunt Nicole and started thumbing through it.  I stopped at this verse and read it over and over.  I had been shown my weaknesses without the rose colored glasses that I had been wearing for far to long.  I finally realized what had been missing in my life and what I needed to do. 

  I have made the changes that I needed to do and I am still making changes.  Each day is a test and more days than others I pass but there are days that I start to question if I am strong enough to pass these tests put in front of me.  When I get thinking like I open my scriptures and read this passage over and over till I get the feeling that everything will be okay.  I loving what my changes have done to my family and how close we have gotten.  I love how me and Jake sit and talk about church stuff all the time.  It has been an adjustment but not a hard one.  I have been humbled and I know that one day my weaknesses will be made strengths.

  We had the most wonderful weekend.  We went to Stake Conference where Jake was sustained and Elder in the church.  Sunday night some of our family members and friends came for dinner and then went with us up to the church where Jake's dad Tony ordained him as an Elder.  The blessing was so beautiful.  I am so happy that my husband is now a priesthood holder.  Our journey is just getting started and I am so excited about where we will end up in the end!

Time for an update!!

  Well it's been awhile since I have updated this thing so i figured I had better get on it.  Not a whole lot has really been going on in the last month.  Kids have all been pretty healthy for the most part and so have I.  I went to the doctor today for my monthly infusion and it went pretty good. Jake is still working in southern California. He hates it and wants to come home.  I want him to come home.  He will be flying in on Friday and will be getting ordained and Elder.  I am very excited for this to happen. It puts us that much closer to the temple.  We had our pa blessings done and it was such a neat experience.  I can't believe I waited this long to have mine done.

  Been going through with drawls from the race track.  I haven't been to one chariot race this season and I kind of miss it.  I miss playing with the horses and the adult interaction after a week of being with the kids.  I miss the friends I made down there.  I am hoping to make it to Worlds in a few weeks but we will see.  I had such a good time down there last year and I would kick myself if I didn't at least go to one race.  Last year I didn't miss one!  I am hoping to get feeling good enough that I will be able to start riding them again with my cousin Cody.  We got really close over the past year and it makes me really happy that we can share something together.  Although he has made a kind of career as a jockey, I would like to run one race and then I would be happy. But for now I will take just galloping them!

Well got a busy week and month! Hopefully my next post will be longer with some good news about a temple date!!