When it rains it pours!!

     Where do I start. This holiday season is not really getting off to the best start. Kids have been sick I have been sick and we seem to keep giving it to each other over and over.  Jake is lucky he is staying with his mom while he is working in Salt Lake or he would be sick too.  But I am hoping that it will all be over soon.  My sister in law Nicole had her baby girl last night and I have heard everything went well.  I have no word on a name yet but I did get a picture sent to my phone and she is sooo cute!! I cant wait to cuddle her a little bit. After and only after I have passed all sickness test cause I have had a baby with RSV and will not be getting anywhere near that little girl if me or my kids have even the smallest sniffle.

     I got some rather disturbing test results last week and it has kind of knocked me flat on my butt. When the doctor himself calls you and leaves a message saying call me back asap, it can be kind of nerve wracking.  I try not to worry to much but it is really hard.  I heard a song that kind of made me think I am a strong person and I will get through all of this and if not I will die trying!! I wanted to share the lyrics with you all.

Country Strong by Gwyneth Paltrow

I know you see me
Like some wide eyed dreamer
That just rolled in off a dusty mid west bus
Yeah, on the outside I look fragile
But on the inside is something you can’t crush

Cause I'm country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I'll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong

I have weathered
Colder winters; Longer summers
Without a drop of rain
Push me in a corner
And I’ll come out fighting
I may lose but I ‘ll always keep my faith

Cause I’m country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I’ll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong


Cause I’m country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I’ll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong
I’m country strong
Yeah, I’m country strong
I’m country strong
I’m country strong
I’m country strong

      This song is so true!!  I am going to make this holiday season the best one I can.  I bore my testimony for the first time in my adult life Sunday.  I cant believe the peace that came over me while standing up there in front of people who really don't know me and telling them what I believe in.  I did cry and kind of felt foolish but I know those were cleansing tears for me.  I felt so much lighter afterwords.  My visiting teacher came to me in tears after the meeting and said,"I drove by your house on my way to work and this thought came into my head out of no where and it was "Take care of Emberly" Now I know why."  This brought on more tears from me when I realized God really does have people out there to help me.  All I have to do is ask for the help.  I am a very stubborn woman and I don't ask for help often but knowing its there is a great comfort to me cause I know in the coming weeks and months I am really going to need it. 

     Happy Holidays all and remember what this season is about. Take care of one another for you never know who is just to stubborn to ask for the help!!