Tuesday, November 2, 2010

30 Days of Truth!!

                                          Day 1: Something you hate about yourself!!
    
     I have sat and pondered this question for awhile today trying to figure out how to answer it.  Hate is a very strong word but I know that I can use the word when describing the one thing I hate about myself.  I hate the fact that I don't know who I am.  I know that is an off the wall answer, but honestly I have always had a hard time figuring out who I really am.  I am a wife, mother, sister, daughter, granddaughter, niece and aunt but who is Emberly. I have been a waitress, queen, rodeo girl, race jockey and swim teacher but who is Emberly.  This is one thing I hate about myself cause I cant answer this question. 

     All growing up I have tried to fit in and never really did.  So I tried to become what I thought other people thought I should be. It worked for the most part but somewhere in the hustle and bustle I lost myself. I used to be very independent and strong. Now I depend on others a lot and feel weak most of the time. So which on of those girls am I? The strong independent one or the needy weak one?  I don't regret any of my choices because if I did then I would regret my life now, I just regret not staying true to me through the years. I hate that I let others define who I was or had to be.

     Now that I realize these things I am moving forward to figure out who I am and what I want. I will get to the day when I can look in the mirror and know who I am looking at and like what I see. It will take time but with the love and support of family and friends I will succeed.

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
 Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

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