I give up!

     Well I give up on the 30 days of truth thing. I tried really hard but its really hard cause I feel like I am lying on a few of them and don't really know how to answer some of the others. So I have decided that I am going to do them in a journal so that I have them for myself and no one else can criticize what I write for the answers.  So anyway I am going to get back to talking about what is important to me in life and that is my family.

    For the last month or so we have been very fortunate to have Jake home every night. I almost feel spoiled cause that hasn't happened in 2 years.  Right now he is down in Salt Lake on storm work. Tis the season for power outages.  He is my hero!  He goes out in the rain, snow, cold and wind so that we can all stay nice and warm in our homes.  Linemen are for sure the unsung hero's out there.

     So my health is still pretty crappy. I thought for the longest time that the new meds were working, but I am hurting worse than ever it seems like.  My back has been killing me cause the arthritis has settled into my spine and the muscles are tight to protect my spine.  Or that's what they are telling me.  But my liver and kidneys tests have been off so I am thinking we are looking at the beginning of kidney and liver failure.  I am hoping that is not the case.  I had a blessing my the missionaries the other night and it was really nice and left me with a little comfort.  The hardest part is I cant sit or stand or lay for long.  I have been going to PT and it helps for a few hours but the pain always comes back and it's usually worse.  I just want to give up and lay in bed but having 3 small children that is not possible.

     We have been going to church on a regular basis and having the missionaries come once a week.  We are going to be meeting with the bishop soon so we can start working towards the temple.  For the first time today in probably my whole life I paid a full tithing.  I felt so good as I handed it to Bishop Armstrong. First big step in our path to the temple.  We are hoping that we can have everything ready to go by our 8th anniversary in June.

     The kids are all doing great. They love primary so much. They are anxiously awaiting the arrival of a new cousin any day from their Aunt Nicole and to tell you the truth so am I.  They have been talking a lot about babies. Jordyn said the other day that she wanted a baby sister and Wyatt got all upset and said" YOU HAVE A SISTER!! I WANT A BROTHER!!!  I just started laughing. I would love to have another baby but I just don't see that happening.  They say RA goes into a kind of remission while pregnant and that right there made me say lets do it but I just don't know if I could do 4 kids alone.  I would really like one tho.

     Well I am starting to hurt sitting here so I guess that is my Que to get up and get everyone ready for bed.