Well as then end of 2010 comes very near, I can't help but sit back and think about the past year. We had a lot of challenges and blessing in this last year. Our biggest challenges continue to be Jake working out of town a lot and my health My arthritis seems to be under control for the most part with the occasional flare up here and there. Which is to be expected with this disease.
Lately I have thinking about the future and what I would like to do in the coming year. The biggest thing on my list is have another baby but this one will be hard to achieve. I am blessed with 3 beautiful children that keep me hopping day to day and I love it! But I have this feeling in my heart that there is someone missing. When I have talked to family or friends about it they tell me I am crazy and not healthy enough for it. It upsets me every time I hear this and makes me start thinking maybe I am really not healthy enough for it. But that nagging feeling keeps coming back and it is so strong at times that it makes me want to cry cause I feel so helpless to do anything about it. I know I sound crazy I guess. 3 kids alone half the time how could I possibly do it? I have tried really hard to convince myself to be happy with what I have now and I am but its just that feeling that keeps coming back. Jake keeps telling me he will think about it but we have all been kids and know what that always means. NO!! I just wish men could feel what us mothers feel when we have that baby growing inside of us and know beyond a shadow of a doubt that it is truly a gift from God. I have been very blessed to have experienced this 3 times and maybe I should be content with that but it is really hard to except.
Maybe with some praying and thinking, both me and Jake can come to a decision that will benefit the family and we will both be happy with it. I hope you all have had a wonderful holiday season and that the new year find you all happy and in good health.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
When it rains it pours!!
Where do I start. This holiday season is not really getting off to the best start. Kids have been sick I have been sick and we seem to keep giving it to each other over and over. Jake is lucky he is staying with his mom while he is working in Salt Lake or he would be sick too. But I am hoping that it will all be over soon. My sister in law Nicole had her baby girl last night and I have heard everything went well. I have no word on a name yet but I did get a picture sent to my phone and she is sooo cute!! I cant wait to cuddle her a little bit. After and only after I have passed all sickness test cause I have had a baby with RSV and will not be getting anywhere near that little girl if me or my kids have even the smallest sniffle.
I got some rather disturbing test results last week and it has kind of knocked me flat on my butt. When the doctor himself calls you and leaves a message saying call me back asap, it can be kind of nerve wracking. I try not to worry to much but it is really hard. I heard a song that kind of made me think I am a strong person and I will get through all of this and if not I will die trying!! I wanted to share the lyrics with you all.
I got some rather disturbing test results last week and it has kind of knocked me flat on my butt. When the doctor himself calls you and leaves a message saying call me back asap, it can be kind of nerve wracking. I try not to worry to much but it is really hard. I heard a song that kind of made me think I am a strong person and I will get through all of this and if not I will die trying!! I wanted to share the lyrics with you all.
Country Strong by Gwyneth Paltrow
I know you see me
Like some wide eyed dreamer
That just rolled in off a dusty mid west bus
Yeah, on the outside I look fragile
But on the inside is something you can’t crush
Cause I'm country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I'll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong
I have weathered
Colder winters; Longer summers
Without a drop of rain
Push me in a corner
And I’ll come out fighting
I may lose but I ‘ll always keep my faith
Cause I’m country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I’ll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong
Cause I’m country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I’ll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong
I’m country strong
Yeah, I’m country strong
I’m country strong
I’m country strong
I’m country strong
Like some wide eyed dreamer
That just rolled in off a dusty mid west bus
Yeah, on the outside I look fragile
But on the inside is something you can’t crush
Cause I'm country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I'll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong
I have weathered
Colder winters; Longer summers
Without a drop of rain
Push me in a corner
And I’ll come out fighting
I may lose but I ‘ll always keep my faith
Cause I’m country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I’ll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong
Cause I’m country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I’ll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong
I’m country strong
Yeah, I’m country strong
I’m country strong
I’m country strong
I’m country strong
This song is so true!! I am going to make this holiday season the best one I can. I bore my testimony for the first time in my adult life Sunday. I cant believe the peace that came over me while standing up there in front of people who really don't know me and telling them what I believe in. I did cry and kind of felt foolish but I know those were cleansing tears for me. I felt so much lighter afterwords. My visiting teacher came to me in tears after the meeting and said,"I drove by your house on my way to work and this thought came into my head out of no where and it was "Take care of Emberly" Now I know why." This brought on more tears from me when I realized God really does have people out there to help me. All I have to do is ask for the help. I am a very stubborn woman and I don't ask for help often but knowing its there is a great comfort to me cause I know in the coming weeks and months I am really going to need it.
Happy Holidays all and remember what this season is about. Take care of one another for you never know who is just to stubborn to ask for the help!!
Friday, December 3, 2010
Tis the season for giving!!
Yesterday was Wyatt's 7th birthday and it was a really good day. We had pizza, cake and of course presents. Grandma and Grandpa Clark were here along with, Audrie, Chelsey, Josh and Preston. We had a fun night watching him unwrap his gifts.
Today I have put together a project for my kids. They are going through all the toys in their room and putting them in three piles: Toys to keep, Toys that are broken and Toys that we no longer play with. I explained to them that the toys that are in the pile that they no longer play with will be given to kids that don't have any toys. I am amazed how quickly they got to work. The pile of toys for other kids is bigger than the pile to keep and this is just the toys in their room. We will be tackling the toy room tomorrow.
While cleaning Jailey my three year old brought me a handful of nickles, pennies, dimes, and quarters. And with all the wisdom of a three your old she says," Mommy can we give this money to people who don't have any?" It took everything I had not to start crying and make her think she had done something wrong. I took the money in my hand and said,"Of course we can love bug." We put the money on the counter so that we can go put it in the sub for Santa can. They pile is growing there also.
It is amazing how a three year old can have the insight that tho people are going with toys that they may be going without money too. It has inspired me to try and give more to those who are less fortunate than I am. If we all can take a page from my little girls book I truly think that this world would be a better place. I hope that this story helps you guys get in touch with the spirit of the season and remember it is the season of giving and not getting.
Today I have put together a project for my kids. They are going through all the toys in their room and putting them in three piles: Toys to keep, Toys that are broken and Toys that we no longer play with. I explained to them that the toys that are in the pile that they no longer play with will be given to kids that don't have any toys. I am amazed how quickly they got to work. The pile of toys for other kids is bigger than the pile to keep and this is just the toys in their room. We will be tackling the toy room tomorrow.
While cleaning Jailey my three year old brought me a handful of nickles, pennies, dimes, and quarters. And with all the wisdom of a three your old she says," Mommy can we give this money to people who don't have any?" It took everything I had not to start crying and make her think she had done something wrong. I took the money in my hand and said,"Of course we can love bug." We put the money on the counter so that we can go put it in the sub for Santa can. They pile is growing there also.
It is amazing how a three year old can have the insight that tho people are going with toys that they may be going without money too. It has inspired me to try and give more to those who are less fortunate than I am. If we all can take a page from my little girls book I truly think that this world would be a better place. I hope that this story helps you guys get in touch with the spirit of the season and remember it is the season of giving and not getting.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
I give up!
Well I give up on the 30 days of truth thing. I tried really hard but its really hard cause I feel like I am lying on a few of them and don't really know how to answer some of the others. So I have decided that I am going to do them in a journal so that I have them for myself and no one else can criticize what I write for the answers. So anyway I am going to get back to talking about what is important to me in life and that is my family.
For the last month or so we have been very fortunate to have Jake home every night. I almost feel spoiled cause that hasn't happened in 2 years. Right now he is down in Salt Lake on storm work. Tis the season for power outages. He is my hero! He goes out in the rain, snow, cold and wind so that we can all stay nice and warm in our homes. Linemen are for sure the unsung hero's out there.
So my health is still pretty crappy. I thought for the longest time that the new meds were working, but I am hurting worse than ever it seems like. My back has been killing me cause the arthritis has settled into my spine and the muscles are tight to protect my spine. Or that's what they are telling me. But my liver and kidneys tests have been off so I am thinking we are looking at the beginning of kidney and liver failure. I am hoping that is not the case. I had a blessing my the missionaries the other night and it was really nice and left me with a little comfort. The hardest part is I cant sit or stand or lay for long. I have been going to PT and it helps for a few hours but the pain always comes back and it's usually worse. I just want to give up and lay in bed but having 3 small children that is not possible.
We have been going to church on a regular basis and having the missionaries come once a week. We are going to be meeting with the bishop soon so we can start working towards the temple. For the first time today in probably my whole life I paid a full tithing. I felt so good as I handed it to Bishop Armstrong. First big step in our path to the temple. We are hoping that we can have everything ready to go by our 8th anniversary in June.
The kids are all doing great. They love primary so much. They are anxiously awaiting the arrival of a new cousin any day from their Aunt Nicole and to tell you the truth so am I. They have been talking a lot about babies. Jordyn said the other day that she wanted a baby sister and Wyatt got all upset and said" YOU HAVE A SISTER!! I WANT A BROTHER!!! I just started laughing. I would love to have another baby but I just don't see that happening. They say RA goes into a kind of remission while pregnant and that right there made me say lets do it but I just don't know if I could do 4 kids alone. I would really like one tho.
Well I am starting to hurt sitting here so I guess that is my Que to get up and get everyone ready for bed.
For the last month or so we have been very fortunate to have Jake home every night. I almost feel spoiled cause that hasn't happened in 2 years. Right now he is down in Salt Lake on storm work. Tis the season for power outages. He is my hero! He goes out in the rain, snow, cold and wind so that we can all stay nice and warm in our homes. Linemen are for sure the unsung hero's out there.
So my health is still pretty crappy. I thought for the longest time that the new meds were working, but I am hurting worse than ever it seems like. My back has been killing me cause the arthritis has settled into my spine and the muscles are tight to protect my spine. Or that's what they are telling me. But my liver and kidneys tests have been off so I am thinking we are looking at the beginning of kidney and liver failure. I am hoping that is not the case. I had a blessing my the missionaries the other night and it was really nice and left me with a little comfort. The hardest part is I cant sit or stand or lay for long. I have been going to PT and it helps for a few hours but the pain always comes back and it's usually worse. I just want to give up and lay in bed but having 3 small children that is not possible.
We have been going to church on a regular basis and having the missionaries come once a week. We are going to be meeting with the bishop soon so we can start working towards the temple. For the first time today in probably my whole life I paid a full tithing. I felt so good as I handed it to Bishop Armstrong. First big step in our path to the temple. We are hoping that we can have everything ready to go by our 8th anniversary in June.
The kids are all doing great. They love primary so much. They are anxiously awaiting the arrival of a new cousin any day from their Aunt Nicole and to tell you the truth so am I. They have been talking a lot about babies. Jordyn said the other day that she wanted a baby sister and Wyatt got all upset and said" YOU HAVE A SISTER!! I WANT A BROTHER!!! I just started laughing. I would love to have another baby but I just don't see that happening. They say RA goes into a kind of remission while pregnant and that right there made me say lets do it but I just don't know if I could do 4 kids alone. I would really like one tho.
Well I am starting to hurt sitting here so I guess that is my Que to get up and get everyone ready for bed.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do!
Well here we go again, I know I am lousy at this. Okay something I hope I never have to do is watch my children go through the pain that I experience day in and day out. There are days when the pain is to much and I just lay in bed praying for it to stop. It would be more than I think I could handle. Besides all the pain there are the side effects too that make things that much worse. Having to watch lumps and bumps and waiting for the next infection to creep up. Being told you high risk lymphoma is another thing that worries me. I pray that they will be spared from all of this.
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life!
Okay so I have really sucked it up when it comes to this 30 days of truth. I kind of took a couple days off and now I am getting back into it. Sorry if you have been checking each day. So here we go again!
I have had a ton of things that I have hoped to do in my life and a lot of those things are not going to happen and I have to just deal with it. I always wanted to at least try out for Miss Rodeo Utah but that is one thing that wont happen now. They kind of frown on married mothers of three. But that is okay with me.
One thing I do hope to do is compete in at least one PRCA rodeo in barrels, and I will do that! Even if I buy my card and walk around the barrels I will ride in one pro show!!
Another thing I hope to do is go through the temple. We are taking the steps to get there and I hope that one day we will get there!!!
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
I have had a ton of things that I have hoped to do in my life and a lot of those things are not going to happen and I have to just deal with it. I always wanted to at least try out for Miss Rodeo Utah but that is one thing that wont happen now. They kind of frown on married mothers of three. But that is okay with me.
One thing I do hope to do is compete in at least one PRCA rodeo in barrels, and I will do that! Even if I buy my card and walk around the barrels I will ride in one pro show!!
Another thing I hope to do is go through the temple. We are taking the steps to get there and I hope that one day we will get there!!!
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Friday, November 5, 2010
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for...
There are a few people that I really need to forgive but I am not sure they even know what they have done has offended me. I am a very sensitive person and I take things a little to serious. All growing up I was always an easy target for people especially boys. They knew just what to say to make me absolutely hate myself. There was a group of boys who would do anything and everything to make me cry. They would achieve that goal very easy cause I wear my heart on my sleeve. I remember on particular day very well. I had hit an all time low and decided that life really wasn't worth it anymore. I had to sit next to these boys in a certain class and I mentioned to them how they had made my life hell and how it wasn't worth it anymore. One boy looked at me and said if you need some help I will help you. He was talking about helping me off myself. I know none of them knew just how serious I was but I was very serious.
I have held on to that anger since the 8th grade. I think now that I will be 26 next week that maybe its time to try and forgive but not forget. I had some very good friends of mine that helped me get through that dark time in my life. They helped me realize that life is worth so much more. So I am going to forgive those boys for the hell they put me through. I hope that they never have to go through what my parents went through trying to comfort me and get me through those rough days......
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
I have held on to that anger since the 8th grade. I think now that I will be 26 next week that maybe its time to try and forgive but not forget. I had some very good friends of mine that helped me get through that dark time in my life. They helped me realize that life is worth so much more. So I am going to forgive those boys for the hell they put me through. I hope that they never have to go through what my parents went through trying to comfort me and get me through those rough days......
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Day Three: Something You have to forgive yourself for.
Well this one is hard and easy at the same time. There are a lot of things I need to forgive myself for but finding one that I am comfortable sharing is really hard. But I think that the one I picked is okay to share.
I need to forgive myself for not being healthy. I have thought for a very long time that my actions in the past have created my health problems today. It is nothing that I have done that caused me to get the disease that I have. I feel like because I am sick all the time I am a burden on my husband and family. If I was healthy I could work and maybe Jake wouldn't have to work as hard or long as he does now. I feel bad cause I can't hike and do the things we did when we were dating. I need to forgive myself and try to be as healthy as I can be.
I know my answers are not as good as my first one and reading these may be boring but somethings I just can't type on here because people will and can take them out of context. But by doing this I am being forced to look deeper and see all the other things that I need to forgive myself for. And whether it is on here or something I am dealing with alone I feel like I am finding out things that I never knew about myself.
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
I need to forgive myself for not being healthy. I have thought for a very long time that my actions in the past have created my health problems today. It is nothing that I have done that caused me to get the disease that I have. I feel like because I am sick all the time I am a burden on my husband and family. If I was healthy I could work and maybe Jake wouldn't have to work as hard or long as he does now. I feel bad cause I can't hike and do the things we did when we were dating. I need to forgive myself and try to be as healthy as I can be.
I know my answers are not as good as my first one and reading these may be boring but somethings I just can't type on here because people will and can take them out of context. But by doing this I am being forced to look deeper and see all the other things that I need to forgive myself for. And whether it is on here or something I am dealing with alone I feel like I am finding out things that I never knew about myself.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Day Two: Something you love about yourself.
Okay I have taken all day to think about this one cause its really hard for me to talk good about myself. I think it is a difficult task for everyone. Its a lot easier to believe the bad stuff than it is to believe the good stuff. But I would have to say one thing I do love about myself is my ability to listen.
I believe I am a good listener. I try to listen to other peoples problems and try to help them come to a solution. I know that is not real deep and kind of a lame answer compared to the one I wrote yesterday but it has opened my eyes to the fact that I need to start loving more about myself. If you don't love yourself than you can't expect others to. Something to work on and think about.
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
I believe I am a good listener. I try to listen to other peoples problems and try to help them come to a solution. I know that is not real deep and kind of a lame answer compared to the one I wrote yesterday but it has opened my eyes to the fact that I need to start loving more about myself. If you don't love yourself than you can't expect others to. Something to work on and think about.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
30 Days of Truth!!
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself!!
I have sat and pondered this question for awhile today trying to figure out how to answer it. Hate is a very strong word but I know that I can use the word when describing the one thing I hate about myself. I hate the fact that I don't know who I am. I know that is an off the wall answer, but honestly I have always had a hard time figuring out who I really am. I am a wife, mother, sister, daughter, granddaughter, niece and aunt but who is Emberly. I have been a waitress, queen, rodeo girl, race jockey and swim teacher but who is Emberly. This is one thing I hate about myself cause I cant answer this question.
All growing up I have tried to fit in and never really did. So I tried to become what I thought other people thought I should be. It worked for the most part but somewhere in the hustle and bustle I lost myself. I used to be very independent and strong. Now I depend on others a lot and feel weak most of the time. So which on of those girls am I? The strong independent one or the needy weak one? I don't regret any of my choices because if I did then I would regret my life now, I just regret not staying true to me through the years. I hate that I let others define who I was or had to be.
Now that I realize these things I am moving forward to figure out who I am and what I want. I will get to the day when I can look in the mirror and know who I am looking at and like what I see. It will take time but with the love and support of family and friends I will succeed.
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
I have sat and pondered this question for awhile today trying to figure out how to answer it. Hate is a very strong word but I know that I can use the word when describing the one thing I hate about myself. I hate the fact that I don't know who I am. I know that is an off the wall answer, but honestly I have always had a hard time figuring out who I really am. I am a wife, mother, sister, daughter, granddaughter, niece and aunt but who is Emberly. I have been a waitress, queen, rodeo girl, race jockey and swim teacher but who is Emberly. This is one thing I hate about myself cause I cant answer this question.
All growing up I have tried to fit in and never really did. So I tried to become what I thought other people thought I should be. It worked for the most part but somewhere in the hustle and bustle I lost myself. I used to be very independent and strong. Now I depend on others a lot and feel weak most of the time. So which on of those girls am I? The strong independent one or the needy weak one? I don't regret any of my choices because if I did then I would regret my life now, I just regret not staying true to me through the years. I hate that I let others define who I was or had to be.
Now that I realize these things I am moving forward to figure out who I am and what I want. I will get to the day when I can look in the mirror and know who I am looking at and like what I see. It will take time but with the love and support of family and friends I will succeed.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Monday, October 25, 2010
The start of a new adventure!!
Wow what a week we have had. It seems like we have been running full tilt! Jake was home all week and weekend and I didn't know what to do with all the help. He is soo helpful with the kids when he is home. He got Wyatt up and ready for school and then got the girls up while I would run Wyatt to school. We work like a well oiled machine. He got to do a little deer hunting while he was home and I was able to go with him one day. We also got family pics Wednesday. I will post some as soon as I figure out how ;)
Friday afternoon we got a phone call that changed our plans for the weekend. A guy called him named Kevin and said he had heard a lot of good things about Jake and his work ethic and told him about a job that was going to starting Wednesday about 30 miles from our house and told him he would love to have him on his crew. I started crying the min Jake got off the phone and told me he would be working close to home till the end of the year. It was truly and answer to my prayers. My RA gets really bad in the winter and makes feeding the animals hard for me, but I have managed. But now Jake will be here to help me. This is the first time he has been home full time in over 2 years.
Saturday night we made a mad dash to Kaycee, Wyoming to get Jake's truck and our fifth wheel camp trailer. It was a long 24 hours but it was so worth it to have him coming home. He got up this morning and went to Salt Lake to quit is old job and sign all the papers for his new one. I am so happy I don't know what to do. This will also be the first Halloween he has been home in 3 years.
I am not really looking forward to this week but it will be easier with Jake being home. I go in Friday for my third infusion of meds. I am not looking forward to it but I know it is working cause I don't start hurting till right before my next one. But all the meds I am taking are starting to do their number on my liver and kidneys. They are watching some enlarged lymph nodes in my neck too. I am staying positive but how long can one keep fighting one's own body. I know there are people out there that are soo much worse off than I am and I don't want to sound like I am complaining but I am for a min. I am just so tired of the chemo meds and the iv infusions and all the pills. Okay so I am done complaining :) Jake is home to help now YAY!!!!!
So here is to our new adventure as a family that lives in the same house full time!!!!!!!
Friday afternoon we got a phone call that changed our plans for the weekend. A guy called him named Kevin and said he had heard a lot of good things about Jake and his work ethic and told him about a job that was going to starting Wednesday about 30 miles from our house and told him he would love to have him on his crew. I started crying the min Jake got off the phone and told me he would be working close to home till the end of the year. It was truly and answer to my prayers. My RA gets really bad in the winter and makes feeding the animals hard for me, but I have managed. But now Jake will be here to help me. This is the first time he has been home full time in over 2 years.
Saturday night we made a mad dash to Kaycee, Wyoming to get Jake's truck and our fifth wheel camp trailer. It was a long 24 hours but it was so worth it to have him coming home. He got up this morning and went to Salt Lake to quit is old job and sign all the papers for his new one. I am so happy I don't know what to do. This will also be the first Halloween he has been home in 3 years.
I am not really looking forward to this week but it will be easier with Jake being home. I go in Friday for my third infusion of meds. I am not looking forward to it but I know it is working cause I don't start hurting till right before my next one. But all the meds I am taking are starting to do their number on my liver and kidneys. They are watching some enlarged lymph nodes in my neck too. I am staying positive but how long can one keep fighting one's own body. I know there are people out there that are soo much worse off than I am and I don't want to sound like I am complaining but I am for a min. I am just so tired of the chemo meds and the iv infusions and all the pills. Okay so I am done complaining :) Jake is home to help now YAY!!!!!
So here is to our new adventure as a family that lives in the same house full time!!!!!!!
Monday, October 18, 2010
Just another weekend in paradise!!
Well we find ourselves at the end of a really good weekend. I hate how fast the weekend seems to go by. Time in general flies by these days. Halloween is going to upon us before we know it and that means the holiday's are here.
I took the kids shopping Friday for their Halloween costumes. That was oh so much fun ;) If anyone has been in a crowded store with three little kids know exactly what I mean. Lucky for me my big little brother went with me. He is such a big help these days. We were in Wal-Mart forever it seemed. Finally we left with two fairies and one ninja.
From there I went to Al's sporting goods to buy some hiking shoes for my big hunting trip with Jake this weekend. I am so out of shape I will probably die on this trip. I like hunting but my joints don't like the cold or the physical beating, but I have to stay active or I will lose my mind. After my stop there I had to run to Dillards to buy Wyatt some new church pants and ended up buy my neighbor's baby an outfit. I am a sucker for babies.
That night we went and watched my little brother play in his last varsity home game of the season. They kicked butt and won 40-0. It is so hard to believe he is 17. Seems like just yesterday I was changing his diapers ;) It was a really good game and the kids really got into it when they could see number 55 on the field.
Saturday was a pretty boring day for us. We just hang out at the house most of the day. That night we went to my cousin Audrie's house for dinner. My parents and brother, Chelsey, Josh and Preston and my grandparents were there. My parents had their trailer and my grandparents had their motor home there. They were having themselves a little camp out. It was really nice to just let kids play and have grown up conversations.
Sunday was a really big day for us. We attended a full block of church for the first time. I hadn't done that in over 12yrs I think and the kids never have with me. I really enjoyed it and I am felt like the lesson's and talks were directed at me. They spoke of a lot of things that I had questions about and I got some much needed answers too. I have been reading the Book of Mormon and have felt a peace in my life that was missing for so long. When it was over I had this warm feeling like one day it will all be easier. Changing our lives is going to be hard but in the end it will be worth it when I can spend eternity with my family.
Later that night I got to go pick up my husband in Tremonton. I was soooo happy to have him home. The kids were really excited too. When we got home we all watched how to train your dragon and had a really nice night as a family. After the kids went to bed me and Jake sat up and watched some t.v. then went to bed. It is so weird, when he is home I feel more tired and I sleep much deeper. I don't wake up at all during the night like I do when he is gone, then I can't wake up in the morning. Maybe its because I can finally relax and all the days I couldn't hit me at one time.
Really excited for the week to come. Family pics and hunting with Jake. Going to be busy but soo worth it!!!
I took the kids shopping Friday for their Halloween costumes. That was oh so much fun ;) If anyone has been in a crowded store with three little kids know exactly what I mean. Lucky for me my big little brother went with me. He is such a big help these days. We were in Wal-Mart forever it seemed. Finally we left with two fairies and one ninja.
From there I went to Al's sporting goods to buy some hiking shoes for my big hunting trip with Jake this weekend. I am so out of shape I will probably die on this trip. I like hunting but my joints don't like the cold or the physical beating, but I have to stay active or I will lose my mind. After my stop there I had to run to Dillards to buy Wyatt some new church pants and ended up buy my neighbor's baby an outfit. I am a sucker for babies.
That night we went and watched my little brother play in his last varsity home game of the season. They kicked butt and won 40-0. It is so hard to believe he is 17. Seems like just yesterday I was changing his diapers ;) It was a really good game and the kids really got into it when they could see number 55 on the field.
Saturday was a pretty boring day for us. We just hang out at the house most of the day. That night we went to my cousin Audrie's house for dinner. My parents and brother, Chelsey, Josh and Preston and my grandparents were there. My parents had their trailer and my grandparents had their motor home there. They were having themselves a little camp out. It was really nice to just let kids play and have grown up conversations.
Sunday was a really big day for us. We attended a full block of church for the first time. I hadn't done that in over 12yrs I think and the kids never have with me. I really enjoyed it and I am felt like the lesson's and talks were directed at me. They spoke of a lot of things that I had questions about and I got some much needed answers too. I have been reading the Book of Mormon and have felt a peace in my life that was missing for so long. When it was over I had this warm feeling like one day it will all be easier. Changing our lives is going to be hard but in the end it will be worth it when I can spend eternity with my family.
Later that night I got to go pick up my husband in Tremonton. I was soooo happy to have him home. The kids were really excited too. When we got home we all watched how to train your dragon and had a really nice night as a family. After the kids went to bed me and Jake sat up and watched some t.v. then went to bed. It is so weird, when he is home I feel more tired and I sleep much deeper. I don't wake up at all during the night like I do when he is gone, then I can't wake up in the morning. Maybe its because I can finally relax and all the days I couldn't hit me at one time.
Really excited for the week to come. Family pics and hunting with Jake. Going to be busy but soo worth it!!!
Thursday, October 14, 2010
C is for cookie and thats good enough for me!!
Well we are at the end of another school week in the Jones household. I love our school district cause they only go to school 4 days a week which is awesome. I remember when I was in grade school and we had that schedule. I love it cause it gives us a three day weekend and we are able to go stay with Jake when he is close enough for a weekend trip.
The girls have been learning the letter C in preschool and came home from school Tuesday singing this song,"C is for cookie and that's good enough for me." At first I thought what a cute song. But after hearing it all week it's not so cute anymore. I asked them so stop singing it today and they thought it was funny and sang it louder what little turds ;) My mom tells me I have two little girls just like me and if any of you know what I was like in school knows that I am going to have a run for my money.
Me and the girls played hooky from school today and had a girls day in Preston. We went to lunch and had ice cream. Then we went and looked at the Halloween stuff so we could get an idea of what we wanted to be. Tomorrow we are going to Logan and getting our costumes and pumpkins.
Wyatt came home from school super excited cause he had a silver day. His teacher grades their behavior by color. Yellow means exceptional, silver means outstanding, green is ready to learn, dark blue is fix it, light blue is teachers choice and red is phone call home. For the most part we have had green days and a few dark blues days (he likes to visit, cant imagine where he gets that from) but today was our first silver day and he was so happy and mom is very proud. He loves school so much and I cant believe how well his penmanship is for a 1st grader. His reading has improved leaps and bounds since last year.
I had to have some blood work drawn on Monday cause my kidneys are freaking out over the new meds. I am still waiting on the test results. I hate it when doctors say well we are worried about this will you come in so we can run some more test. Then I wait for a week and hear nothing. Oh well, I really like Dr. Walker and I trust him with my life. He has saved it a couple times. He finds the things that others miss it seems like.
I am very excited to have Jake home for a week. It will be awesome! He has got a lot of stuff to do when he gets here. We are going to go through all the kids toys while they are at school and toss the broken stuff and DI what they don't play with. We are going to try and go hunting and spend some time just me and him. That's the one thing I miss the most is our alone time. When he comes home he likes to just stay home with the kids and I can't hardly blame him. But it's nice to go out just us and be together.
Well I have had it for the night. I am going to finish my oreo's and go to bed. C is for cookie and that's good enough for me :)
The girls have been learning the letter C in preschool and came home from school Tuesday singing this song,"C is for cookie and that's good enough for me." At first I thought what a cute song. But after hearing it all week it's not so cute anymore. I asked them so stop singing it today and they thought it was funny and sang it louder what little turds ;) My mom tells me I have two little girls just like me and if any of you know what I was like in school knows that I am going to have a run for my money.
Me and the girls played hooky from school today and had a girls day in Preston. We went to lunch and had ice cream. Then we went and looked at the Halloween stuff so we could get an idea of what we wanted to be. Tomorrow we are going to Logan and getting our costumes and pumpkins.
Wyatt came home from school super excited cause he had a silver day. His teacher grades their behavior by color. Yellow means exceptional, silver means outstanding, green is ready to learn, dark blue is fix it, light blue is teachers choice and red is phone call home. For the most part we have had green days and a few dark blues days (he likes to visit, cant imagine where he gets that from) but today was our first silver day and he was so happy and mom is very proud. He loves school so much and I cant believe how well his penmanship is for a 1st grader. His reading has improved leaps and bounds since last year.
I had to have some blood work drawn on Monday cause my kidneys are freaking out over the new meds. I am still waiting on the test results. I hate it when doctors say well we are worried about this will you come in so we can run some more test. Then I wait for a week and hear nothing. Oh well, I really like Dr. Walker and I trust him with my life. He has saved it a couple times. He finds the things that others miss it seems like.
I am very excited to have Jake home for a week. It will be awesome! He has got a lot of stuff to do when he gets here. We are going to go through all the kids toys while they are at school and toss the broken stuff and DI what they don't play with. We are going to try and go hunting and spend some time just me and him. That's the one thing I miss the most is our alone time. When he comes home he likes to just stay home with the kids and I can't hardly blame him. But it's nice to go out just us and be together.
Well I have had it for the night. I am going to finish my oreo's and go to bed. C is for cookie and that's good enough for me :)
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Life in Downey, Idaho
In my last blog I let everyone know whats been going on the last 7 and a half years. In this blog and I am going to fill everyone in an what life has been like living in Downey. Our little town has a population of 600 people. I LOVE IT!!! When we first moved here I was a little nervous to put down roots in a town were I knew absolutely no one. When my parents moved to Preston they at least had some of our family but me I had no one. But over the years I have made friends and I really love it here.
After we first moved here I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis. It was a big shock to me since I thought arthritis was for old people. They put me on some medicine that made me gain 50lbs in one month. Needless to say I told them I would take the pain over the weight. After trying a bunch of things for almost a year the local Dr. decided to send me to a specialist and that's when I met Dr. Corey Walker. He has been a great doctor and has worked really hard to keep me healthy.
He put me on some medicine that was a shot that I had to give myself once a week in my thigh and it worked awesome. I didn't hurt at all, but I didn't have an immune system either. They put me on immuno suppressants since that is what RA is. It is your immune system attacking your joints. Because I didn't have an immune system I got sick alot. I got the flu shot like we all do and in February of 2009 I ended up with influenza A. If you think you have had the flu you don't know what the flu is until you have the actual influenza. I felt like I was dying. During this time I had to go off all my meds so I hurt even worse. But I kicked it and went back on my meds.
In April of the same year I started having sever pains in my stomach and ended up in the ER to have my gal bladder removed. I felt soooo much better after that. Little did I know that it was just the beginning of my summer from Hell!!!! In June I ended up back in the ER with almost the same pain that put me in the ER earlier that year. After a day there and a return trip a few days later I was told that I had MRSA. If you don't know what that is it is the super Staph infection. It was in my kidney's and bladder. I had picked it up while in the hospital for my surgery. If they had not found it when they did things could have when from bad to worse in a quick hurry and because I had no immune system from my meds it made things that much worse.
I started to get the staph sores on my skin and they hurt really bad, but the pumped me full of antibiotics and they went away. I happy to note I haven't had any other breakouts in almost a year knock on wood. In September of that year once again I was in the ER with the same pain. At this time both Jake and I were at our whits end trying to figure out why I was in so much pain all the time and with him working out of town all the time it made the stress that much worse. This time they discovered it was my appendix. So away to the operating room I went. I am happy to note that since that surgery I haven't had that pain. Makes me wonder if it wasn't my appendix the whole time. The whole time this was going on I wasn't able to take my arthritis meds so that I could build up my immune system and fight these infections. So needless to say I was in pain.
Once I got all of that taken care of I started to take my meds again. My stomach started to not tolerate the meds so they switched my pills to a shot also. So now I was sticking myself twice a week. Then just when things started looking good I got shingles. After that Jake told me if I took one more shot of the immuno suppressants he would divorce me. I know he was kidding but he was really serious about getting off of them. So I stopped it and now am on an IV infusion once a month and it has been working really well. And I haven't had any infections YAY!!!!!
During this whole time my kids and husband were so supportive. My kids are the best kids in the whole world and are so helpful when I am stiff and sore from my RA flareups. I have always kind of wanted another baby but because of my meds the birth defects would be really bad. I now know why I had my kids so young. The Lord knew that I would have these problems and wanted me to have the joy of being a parent. Although they do say RA goes into a kind of remission during pregnancy so maybe one day ;)
So I guess this blog hasn't really had much to do with Downey and more to do with my health. Guess I should tell you all alittle more about Downey. It is a very small community. My son Wyatt is in the first grade and he has 14 kids in his class and that is the whole grade. He has been able to learn so much and is reading to me every night. There isn't much here but it is still an awesome little town. For the first time in my life I can walk out my back door and see my horses standing in the back yard. I live a stones throw from the arena and that is really nice. There is only one thing this town is missing and that is my husband. He is currently working in Oregon but I am so happy that he will be coming home this weekend for a little over a week. His honey due list is really long ;)
Well I hope that I am not boring you guys but I figured I need to take this time to bring you all up to date on whats been going on so that you wont be lost in the future. I cant wait to keep everyone up to date on the going on's in our life. It is pretty crazy at times but I love it. I couldnt ask for more!!!
After we first moved here I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis. It was a big shock to me since I thought arthritis was for old people. They put me on some medicine that made me gain 50lbs in one month. Needless to say I told them I would take the pain over the weight. After trying a bunch of things for almost a year the local Dr. decided to send me to a specialist and that's when I met Dr. Corey Walker. He has been a great doctor and has worked really hard to keep me healthy.
He put me on some medicine that was a shot that I had to give myself once a week in my thigh and it worked awesome. I didn't hurt at all, but I didn't have an immune system either. They put me on immuno suppressants since that is what RA is. It is your immune system attacking your joints. Because I didn't have an immune system I got sick alot. I got the flu shot like we all do and in February of 2009 I ended up with influenza A. If you think you have had the flu you don't know what the flu is until you have the actual influenza. I felt like I was dying. During this time I had to go off all my meds so I hurt even worse. But I kicked it and went back on my meds.
In April of the same year I started having sever pains in my stomach and ended up in the ER to have my gal bladder removed. I felt soooo much better after that. Little did I know that it was just the beginning of my summer from Hell!!!! In June I ended up back in the ER with almost the same pain that put me in the ER earlier that year. After a day there and a return trip a few days later I was told that I had MRSA. If you don't know what that is it is the super Staph infection. It was in my kidney's and bladder. I had picked it up while in the hospital for my surgery. If they had not found it when they did things could have when from bad to worse in a quick hurry and because I had no immune system from my meds it made things that much worse.
I started to get the staph sores on my skin and they hurt really bad, but the pumped me full of antibiotics and they went away. I happy to note I haven't had any other breakouts in almost a year knock on wood. In September of that year once again I was in the ER with the same pain. At this time both Jake and I were at our whits end trying to figure out why I was in so much pain all the time and with him working out of town all the time it made the stress that much worse. This time they discovered it was my appendix. So away to the operating room I went. I am happy to note that since that surgery I haven't had that pain. Makes me wonder if it wasn't my appendix the whole time. The whole time this was going on I wasn't able to take my arthritis meds so that I could build up my immune system and fight these infections. So needless to say I was in pain.
Once I got all of that taken care of I started to take my meds again. My stomach started to not tolerate the meds so they switched my pills to a shot also. So now I was sticking myself twice a week. Then just when things started looking good I got shingles. After that Jake told me if I took one more shot of the immuno suppressants he would divorce me. I know he was kidding but he was really serious about getting off of them. So I stopped it and now am on an IV infusion once a month and it has been working really well. And I haven't had any infections YAY!!!!!
During this whole time my kids and husband were so supportive. My kids are the best kids in the whole world and are so helpful when I am stiff and sore from my RA flareups. I have always kind of wanted another baby but because of my meds the birth defects would be really bad. I now know why I had my kids so young. The Lord knew that I would have these problems and wanted me to have the joy of being a parent. Although they do say RA goes into a kind of remission during pregnancy so maybe one day ;)
So I guess this blog hasn't really had much to do with Downey and more to do with my health. Guess I should tell you all alittle more about Downey. It is a very small community. My son Wyatt is in the first grade and he has 14 kids in his class and that is the whole grade. He has been able to learn so much and is reading to me every night. There isn't much here but it is still an awesome little town. For the first time in my life I can walk out my back door and see my horses standing in the back yard. I live a stones throw from the arena and that is really nice. There is only one thing this town is missing and that is my husband. He is currently working in Oregon but I am so happy that he will be coming home this weekend for a little over a week. His honey due list is really long ;)
Well I hope that I am not boring you guys but I figured I need to take this time to bring you all up to date on whats been going on so that you wont be lost in the future. I cant wait to keep everyone up to date on the going on's in our life. It is pretty crazy at times but I love it. I couldnt ask for more!!!
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Getting to know the Jones family
Well I am new to this blog thing so you all will have to bare with me. I guess I will start with letting everyone know a little about my family. My name is Emberly Jones also known as Emberly Clark. I am married to Jake Jones and he is a wonderful husband and father. I am the mother of 3 beautiful children. Wyatt is 6, Jordyn is 4 and Jailey is 3. We live in a little town in Idaho and I love it. We have been living here for three years.
Gonna take a couple jumps back and fill everyone in on what life has been like for the last seven years. I married Jake in June of 2003. We had Wyatt in December of the same year. He was such a fat little baby but I was in love from first sight. He was such a good little boy and loved his food that's for sure. I can't stress enough how fat he was but he was a healthy fat. I started working for the North Summit School District in February after Wyatt was born as a swim instructor. I found it really funny that I had wanted nothing more than to get out of that school for 12 years and then found myself working there not even a year after I graduated. Jake was working for his Uncle Kim at the time doing HVAC work. It wasn't his dream job but it paid the bills.
Jake started the lineman's apprenticeship in November of 2004 and traveled to Denver where he started his new career. Being really poor at the time Wyatt and I were not able to join him so we moved in with my grandparents to try and save some money. I continued to work for the school district and took on a few other jobs so that we could save the money to travel to Denver with Jake. I loved living with my grandparents because they were so helpful with Wyatt and I didn't have to cook ;).
In March of 2005 we purchased a fifth wheel camp trailer and so began my journey on the road with my husband. It was a big culture shock moving to Denver. Coming from the little town of Henefer Utah and finding myself in the big town of Denver was a very big adjustment. Needless to say I didn't leave the trailer without Jake if I absolutely didn't have too. While we were living there I found out I was pregnant with our little girl Jordyn. It was a big surprise and a little ill planned since we lived in a fifth wheel camp trailer but I was so happy.
In August of that year Jake got transferred to a different company that was working in Wright Wyoming. So we loaded up the trailer and headed north. I was always very admit about never living in Wyoming when we were first married so when we crossed the state line Jake looked at me with a big smile and said "Told you that you would live in Wyoming." It's funny now but at the time I didn't think it was. While in Wright we had the chance to experience a tornado. It totaled our truck and trailer. Luckily I was staying with my mother at the time for a the Summit County Fair and doctor appointments. Jake happened to be in the truck at the time but was okay. We ended up with out a trailer but that was a blessing in disguise. We stayed in the trailer for a few more months till we could get the insurance stuff worked out. During this time we moved to Buffalo Wyoming. I LOVED it there!!!! It is so beautiful. We fortunate enough to meet some very good friends while there too. Jermey and Shoni with their two kids Jack and Pat. Casey Smith and Clint. We stayed there for a few weeks and went to Cheyenne. Hated it there. Then from there back to Buffalo.
In October we got rid of the trailer and Jake took to moteling it with Casey and I moved home to be closer to my doctor cause my due date was January 3rd. Well we didn't make it to January because our little girl had plans of her own and was born December 23rd. Jake had been on a 1 month ice storm in South Dakota restoring power. He got home the day before she was born. We were very lucky he told his boss he needed to come home or he would have missed it.
In February we purchased a new trailer that was twice as big as our old one and after my sister's wedding we went back to Buffalo. The summer of 2006 was one of the best summers of my life. We were able to stay in a very nice RV park that had a pool and park for the kids. Shoni and I had a very good time letting the kids play together and we all lived like one big family. Troy and Cheyenne joined our little family that summer too. We got really good news in July in of that year. The company Jake was working for at the time had just got work in Salt Lake and they were sending us home!!! We were moving back after 2 years of being on the road. At that time we got lucky again cause my parents had moved to Idaho and their house was sitting empty so we got to live in it till they got it sold. Finally a house with a porcelain toilet. I think I was more happy about that than moving home LOL.
I got really sick in September and I was told I had West Nile. After awhile I got better and didn't give it a second thought. I still had this feeling something wasn't right and had a hunch I knew what was wrong. The Monday after Thanksgiving that year I went and bought a home pregnancy test. I kept telling myself there was no way I was pregnant cause I was on the pill and had not missed one. Living in a trailer with two kids had been enough motivation to not forget that little thing and Jake fed them to me like candy. Well I did what you do with those things and went out to the kitchen when the timer when off Jake ran to the bathroom and I heard a word that I would rather not mention. I didn't even need to look at it to know that we were expecting baby number 3.
I had no idea how far along I was because I will still nursing my baby so I made an appointment to see the doc. A few days before the appointment that was set for the 22 of December if I remember right Jake had to go to Seattle for a storm. So my mom and I went to the appointment. I was in shock with what they said. They did the ultrasound and you could see a baby not a peanut shape. You could see arms, legs and a head. He looked at me and said "Well Em come back next week and we will tell you what you are having." NEXT
WEEK!!!!! How far along am I??? He said Looks like almost 5 months. I was in shock. I didn't have West Nile I was pregnant the whole time. Stupid doctor.
Well at the end of March we moved back into our trailer cause my parents were getting their trailer ready to sale. We moved it to Coalville and that's were Donnie and Meri Greenhood came into our lives. Donnie was Jake's boss and his wife became a dear friend of mine. On April 13th a Friday I went into labor and gave birth to our baby Jailey. She was such a good baby. And when you have a little girl already who is only 16 months practically a baby herself a good baby is really nice to have. Jake kept working in Salt Lake till about the end of August when he got moved to Idaho. That's when our search for a house kicked into full drive.
Jake only had 8 months till he was done with the apprenticeship and he would have his Journeyman Lineman ticket. My parents had bought a house in Preston so that is were we started looking. We happened to find a house 26 miles north of my parents. It had 10 acres with it and that was the selling point for Jake. One of Jake's buddies that was working with him at the time moved in with us and we had a really good time till they had to travel to Colorado for work.
Jake still had to move alot but we at least had a home base. He got his ticket in April of 2008 and he got a job that was 30 miles from our house. I was so happy to be able to have him home for awhile but of course all good things must come to an end.
And that is our life in a "nut shell." Jake still moves around alot but he takes the trailer with him as much as he can so that me and the kids can go and stay with him when we can. Wyatt is in the 1st grade and the girls are both in preschool. I get to be a stay home mom and love it. Although it does get pretty boring. Well I will end this entry on that note. I am looking forward to sharing my experiences with all of you and I welcome your comments.
Gonna take a couple jumps back and fill everyone in on what life has been like for the last seven years. I married Jake in June of 2003. We had Wyatt in December of the same year. He was such a fat little baby but I was in love from first sight. He was such a good little boy and loved his food that's for sure. I can't stress enough how fat he was but he was a healthy fat. I started working for the North Summit School District in February after Wyatt was born as a swim instructor. I found it really funny that I had wanted nothing more than to get out of that school for 12 years and then found myself working there not even a year after I graduated. Jake was working for his Uncle Kim at the time doing HVAC work. It wasn't his dream job but it paid the bills.
Jake started the lineman's apprenticeship in November of 2004 and traveled to Denver where he started his new career. Being really poor at the time Wyatt and I were not able to join him so we moved in with my grandparents to try and save some money. I continued to work for the school district and took on a few other jobs so that we could save the money to travel to Denver with Jake. I loved living with my grandparents because they were so helpful with Wyatt and I didn't have to cook ;).
In March of 2005 we purchased a fifth wheel camp trailer and so began my journey on the road with my husband. It was a big culture shock moving to Denver. Coming from the little town of Henefer Utah and finding myself in the big town of Denver was a very big adjustment. Needless to say I didn't leave the trailer without Jake if I absolutely didn't have too. While we were living there I found out I was pregnant with our little girl Jordyn. It was a big surprise and a little ill planned since we lived in a fifth wheel camp trailer but I was so happy.
In August of that year Jake got transferred to a different company that was working in Wright Wyoming. So we loaded up the trailer and headed north. I was always very admit about never living in Wyoming when we were first married so when we crossed the state line Jake looked at me with a big smile and said "Told you that you would live in Wyoming." It's funny now but at the time I didn't think it was. While in Wright we had the chance to experience a tornado. It totaled our truck and trailer. Luckily I was staying with my mother at the time for a the Summit County Fair and doctor appointments. Jake happened to be in the truck at the time but was okay. We ended up with out a trailer but that was a blessing in disguise. We stayed in the trailer for a few more months till we could get the insurance stuff worked out. During this time we moved to Buffalo Wyoming. I LOVED it there!!!! It is so beautiful. We fortunate enough to meet some very good friends while there too. Jermey and Shoni with their two kids Jack and Pat. Casey Smith and Clint. We stayed there for a few weeks and went to Cheyenne. Hated it there. Then from there back to Buffalo.
In October we got rid of the trailer and Jake took to moteling it with Casey and I moved home to be closer to my doctor cause my due date was January 3rd. Well we didn't make it to January because our little girl had plans of her own and was born December 23rd. Jake had been on a 1 month ice storm in South Dakota restoring power. He got home the day before she was born. We were very lucky he told his boss he needed to come home or he would have missed it.
In February we purchased a new trailer that was twice as big as our old one and after my sister's wedding we went back to Buffalo. The summer of 2006 was one of the best summers of my life. We were able to stay in a very nice RV park that had a pool and park for the kids. Shoni and I had a very good time letting the kids play together and we all lived like one big family. Troy and Cheyenne joined our little family that summer too. We got really good news in July in of that year. The company Jake was working for at the time had just got work in Salt Lake and they were sending us home!!! We were moving back after 2 years of being on the road. At that time we got lucky again cause my parents had moved to Idaho and their house was sitting empty so we got to live in it till they got it sold. Finally a house with a porcelain toilet. I think I was more happy about that than moving home LOL.
I got really sick in September and I was told I had West Nile. After awhile I got better and didn't give it a second thought. I still had this feeling something wasn't right and had a hunch I knew what was wrong. The Monday after Thanksgiving that year I went and bought a home pregnancy test. I kept telling myself there was no way I was pregnant cause I was on the pill and had not missed one. Living in a trailer with two kids had been enough motivation to not forget that little thing and Jake fed them to me like candy. Well I did what you do with those things and went out to the kitchen when the timer when off Jake ran to the bathroom and I heard a word that I would rather not mention. I didn't even need to look at it to know that we were expecting baby number 3.
I had no idea how far along I was because I will still nursing my baby so I made an appointment to see the doc. A few days before the appointment that was set for the 22 of December if I remember right Jake had to go to Seattle for a storm. So my mom and I went to the appointment. I was in shock with what they said. They did the ultrasound and you could see a baby not a peanut shape. You could see arms, legs and a head. He looked at me and said "Well Em come back next week and we will tell you what you are having." NEXT
WEEK!!!!! How far along am I??? He said Looks like almost 5 months. I was in shock. I didn't have West Nile I was pregnant the whole time. Stupid doctor.
Well at the end of March we moved back into our trailer cause my parents were getting their trailer ready to sale. We moved it to Coalville and that's were Donnie and Meri Greenhood came into our lives. Donnie was Jake's boss and his wife became a dear friend of mine. On April 13th a Friday I went into labor and gave birth to our baby Jailey. She was such a good baby. And when you have a little girl already who is only 16 months practically a baby herself a good baby is really nice to have. Jake kept working in Salt Lake till about the end of August when he got moved to Idaho. That's when our search for a house kicked into full drive.
Jake only had 8 months till he was done with the apprenticeship and he would have his Journeyman Lineman ticket. My parents had bought a house in Preston so that is were we started looking. We happened to find a house 26 miles north of my parents. It had 10 acres with it and that was the selling point for Jake. One of Jake's buddies that was working with him at the time moved in with us and we had a really good time till they had to travel to Colorado for work.
Jake still had to move alot but we at least had a home base. He got his ticket in April of 2008 and he got a job that was 30 miles from our house. I was so happy to be able to have him home for awhile but of course all good things must come to an end.
And that is our life in a "nut shell." Jake still moves around alot but he takes the trailer with him as much as he can so that me and the kids can go and stay with him when we can. Wyatt is in the 1st grade and the girls are both in preschool. I get to be a stay home mom and love it. Although it does get pretty boring. Well I will end this entry on that note. I am looking forward to sharing my experiences with all of you and I welcome your comments.
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